surely goodness...follow me

i really had no idea what i was saying yes to when i got married. i had an understanding seeing as how i was raised by two people who were committed to each other and to their family. and a good amount of the people around me were married - for better or for worse. but what did this covenant mean for me.

forever. unconditionally loving someone else who is just as imperfect as i am. doing what is best for us rather than for me. patience and kindness always on the tip of my tongue. double the laundry and dishes.

and i know i don't have it all figured out - nor am i close to figuring it all out, i am however completely convinced that i am the luckiest girl in the world. not that this is a competition - i would hope that every girl has these feelings while around her boy.

anyway - sunday came and went...as did our first six months of marriage. And my life has been completely transformed. i feel as though every memory has brendon in it, i almost have to remind myself that he hasn't been a part of my life forever...for so long i wondered if this person would ever come along and now i have a hard time remembering time without him.

here's to six months. and now moving closer to forever.

3 weeks.

I always thought that i would be one of those girls that documents their wedding journey for the world to see. Complete with pictures, a cute countdown, and all the juicy details. I thought that would be me, because i live for these things. i love to plan and create. to make order in chaos, to organize the clutter, and color coordinate while i am at it.

but these girls are crazy. i can't begin to imagine where they find the bits of time here and there to dedicate to updating an eager crowd with all the details of their big day and big life to follow.

i think i feel myself sliding into a crazy chair, probably wearing a crazy hat and mismatched clothes - making me quite the crazy girl...

not that i will fill your time with little details of my wedding. but i think it will feel good to write again.

let me start with the crazy...
so three weeks from this moment i will be a bayley. my name will change, my family will grow and i will be a half of a whole. my feelings at this moment are eager anticipation. the details are organized in a 3 ring binder, people are coming out of the woodwork to show their love to brendon and i, and i have a dress.

21 days and counting...
get ready, here we come.